I haven’t blogged in a while and I must be that busy. And being busy is something that I don’t enjoy, but it enjoys torturing me. I should stop ranting about it. >.>

Anyway, last week or so, I got my EON debit card. I’m going to use it to verify my Paypal since my mom doesn’t want me to use my credit card. I mean, what’s the difference? I registered my card at UnionBankPH. It’s bugging me how I couldn’t log in when I know for a fact that I entered the right card number and PIN and that I registered it 5 days after I tried to log in. -.- I’m just hoping that they haven’t got my form due to time constraints, but will do so when the queue moves, and not because of some other vicious error or stuffs.

I guess I still have three or so weeks before the semester ends. :P I couldn't wait to watch movies that I missed and I'll be having my OJT this summer. The thought is new and foreign and it bugs me.

Don't you think the way I categorize my posts is weird? XD

_{Two ‘o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You’re in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don’t know that I got to get next to you}

I almost forgot yesterday was February 14. :P Belated Happy Valentines Day! How was yesterday? :D Mine wasn’t a usual one since I’ve gone to a date with my family LOL. Yeah, I feel better now and we’re okay. Thank you, guys! *hugs*

I did have a good one. And I was eating a lot yesterday and felt full and didn’t eat dinner. One of the places we went to was Sbarro, which is of course one of my favorite restaurants. *drools* I absolutely love their pizza! And it even surprised me how I can finish that one big slice with no difficulty at all.

I just got back from school and I’m really tired. I want to sleep but I know I shouldn’t since I still have lots of things to do and they keep piling up every day. Our teacers keep giving us projects now that end of the semester is near. End of the semester means end of all projects, stress and hardships. I could do anything I want, learn new things and drown myself in movies and TV series.

March, come here fast!

So I went downstairs and helped my grandma. He only let me use when he went outside to play with his friends so I was able to use the computer for a while and do one of my projects. My other brother, Raymond, was at school and got back in the afternoon. He played with the computer for a while, then they both went outside to play. I was delighted they went outside so I could start on another project, but then my father told me that he’d use the computer. I stood up from where I was sitting and cleaned the house instead. My day went like this; on and off the damned computer.

My family were having dinner while I was taking a bath. When I finished, I noticed that the table was quite empty. There was an empty bowl of dugo-dugo(sorry, I don't know the English term of it), which is a Filipino food. I asked my grandma if there's still any left, then she said "There's none. Your father finished it all." It's been a long time since I ate it, and I wanted to eat it. My grandma asked my mother if she could buy it, but then she said "Oh, it's already evening. It would be all sold out by now". So, I ended up eating my grandma's leftover food, in which the soup is extremely cold. It was only that I fninshed eating that my mom said "You go eat your brother's leftover lumpia shanghai“. No thanks, I’ve already finished eating. I was even surprised there’s still some rice left. Or was that your leftover too?

I went upstairs without washing the dishes because I got really frustrated and angry. I was about to use the computer just to see that my father didn’t finish using it. I have a project and 3 essays to make which will be passed this week so I felt like I don’t have to waste time, but my family don’t understand my situation. So I locked myself in my room and turned off the lights, and cried. The annoying part was my grandmother went to my room, kept knocking and shouting. My father got angry and knocked on my room even harder. Bloody hell. Can’t they understand that I don’t want to talk to anyone? Can’t they see that I’m sleeping? Well, I was only pretending to sleep but can’t they understand that? My father and I are usually on good terms. You can say that I’m a “daddy’s girl”, but I just feel really horrible right now.

What really annoyed me was that the key to my room has a duplicate and they’re the ones keeping it. My father opened the room and rushed me out of the bed, saying that I never fail to give a problem to our house. They made me go downstairs to wash the dishes. I went upstairs to see my brother sitting in front of the computer, playing his fucking game and didn’t want me to use it. Wow, just wow. He got even angry when he saw that I’m still up. Shit.

Yes, fuck my life. It’s even a big surprise that I was able to write this down.

I feel quite relieved now because I’m done with my Assembly project, which seems like a miracle. I keep falling asleep in that subject and could barely understand what I wrote in my notebook. Luckily, me friend helped me understand all those. Haha. Gosh, I suck at this subject. -.-

I went home really late last night since it was our Closing Night for the TechKnow Week. I haven’t attended it since First Year and I’ll be graduating next March. Hopefully. ^^; So I would want to see what it’s like. A lot of my classmates won from the events! YAY! Some of them even sang a song and they were like rock bands. Hahaha. I love the Love Notes part, where the emcees will tell us the notes written by the audience with feelings. XD I find it really funny when one of them says “Love Noooots”, instead of “Love Notes”. Haha.

I’m fully loaded starting on Monday. I’ve got 3 school projects to finish before our Final Exam, 3 800-word essays to make and two of them are to be passed this Wednesday, not to count the exams that I’ll be having. I hope I don’t look stressed or something.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want them to get hurt?
It isn’t love, it’s pity.

Those lines were from an article I just read when I got home today. I admit that’s how I felt when I read it a year ago for this certain guy. But while I was browsing my notebooks and found this, I sort of found it didn’t apply now. I find it already strange enough that I find my thoughts stray to him when I’ve got nothing to do and when I’m in the middle of work, he sometimes pops on my mind. But I don’t want to jump to conclusions and say that I like him. Maybe I just got too accustomed to his presence, that’s all.

He’s the only guy that I could talk to with just about anything, except with serious matters of the heart. We don’t talk about it and I feel uncomfortable talking about it. Haha. It’s been a long time since I last saw him, but I know he’s doing fine. I should stop thinking and probably there isn’t a reason why he’s bugging me lately. -.- I haven’t even thought of my crush for a while now. The reason why I’m afraid of having someone that I like is not the fear of getting hurt, but the fear that it might be too late. It’s sad when feelings don’t cross, and kind of a waste.

I’ll be fine in the next few days; probably my mind is still muddled since I knew today that I have failed in one subject.

I shouldn’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place

geudae jeeguhm nehgahsoom-eh doohluhwah sahrang-uhl mal hago eejyo
Come now inside my heart, You’re telling me about love

kkoom-ee ahneegee-ruhl nah-neun gee-doh-haebwah-yo
I pray that this isn’t a dream

neh maum-ee jjakoo geudaerahn sarahm noh-jee-malrago hahneh-yo
My heart keeps telling me that i shouldn’t let go of you

yohkshi-meul neh-rah-myuh bah-boh-kahteun mahl-eul hahneh-yo
and that i should be greedy.. it’s saying stuff that’s stupid

ooh-yun-hee dahgah-ohn geudae sahrang-ee whenjee nah-suhl-jee ahnhah-jyo
Your love that came accidently.. it wasn’t strange at all

hajeemahn yahksohk-dwen inn-yun-ee gee-eh sahrahng-ee dehl joohl mohl-raht-jyo
But I didn’t know that our promised relationship/fate/destiny would become love..

johkoom hoo-myun geudae boh-neh-yah hahl-tendeh geuruhl jahshinee uhp-jyo.
Sometime later, I have to send you away.. but I don’t have the confidence to do that

nah hoh-llo ee-don’t geu-jahree-ruhl chajah ee-jeh doh-ah gahl poon-indae
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you’re gonna go back

dang-yun-han ill-in-dae wheh mahm-ee ah-poo-jyo
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt

geu-dae wuhn-ha-dtun sahrang-eul cha-ja eejae dohlahkal bboon-in-deh
Now you’re gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted

haengbok-han geudae-ruhl oosoo-myuh boh-neh-yah hahl-ten-dae
I have to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile

neh noon-eul boh-myuh sarang-eul mahl-hah-jyo soo-chyuh-gahn sahrang-ee-jee-mahn
You tell me about Love while lookin into my eyes, but it’s a lightly passing by (small/grazing) love

ee soon-gan nah-neun nuh-moo haengbok-hae-yo mahchi koom-eul koon gutd-chuhrum
I’m so happy right now, it’s like i’m dreaming a dream

ee-jaeh-yah ahlrahsuhyo chuhoom-bootuh oo-rihn sahrang-hae-suh-dahneun guhl
Now you know that from the beginning we were in love

nah hoh-llo ee-don’t geu-jahree-ruhl chahjah ee-jeh dohl-ah-gal bboon-een deh
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you’re gonna go back

dangyun-hahn ill-iin deh whe mahm-ee ah-poo-jyo
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt

geudae wuhn-hah-dtun sahrang-eul chaja ee-jae dohrah gal bbon-eendeh
Now you’re gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted

haengbok-han geudae-reul ooh-soo-myuh bohnehyah haltendae.
I need to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile

Neh-geh sarang-eul joomyun ahndeh-na-yo, geu-dae jungmal ahndae-nayo.
Can’t you give me your love, Can you really not/Is it Impossible?

ee-jeh-nun geudae-reul ee-toh-rohk sarahng-ha-neun-deh
But now I love you so much…

Source: Asian Fanatics

When we still had our car, my grandfather would drive us anywhere when we’re on vacation at Bohol. Our car is just a second-hand car and it’s not the best that you can find at stores, but I loved that car since it was a pick-up car and my father designed the back for us to sit comfortably. Every now and then our car would be repaired and it was really costly. They were saying that check engine light is on or something but I’m not sure if I understood anything, but I think it means different things, like a loose gas cap, which happens to our car frequently. I’m happy though that we didn’t experience any car accident.

I came across this auto repair site would help us maintain our car, but I’m not sure how they would do it since we’re in another country. It would probably be worth a try but seeing as our car can’t be redeemed, I can’t do anything but sit back and watch.

Anyway, this is the car that I’ve been talking about, only that its color is white. We used to ride at the back and pretend we’re playing Quidditch, trying to catch the Snitch while my grandfather was driving us. It was fun! XD Toyota Camry isn’t my dream car, but it’s my favorite Camry car. You see, I really like white cars. :P

And this is my dream car: a Volkswagen pink beetle convertible. I would love a lighter shade of pink, but it’s the best that I can find. *drools* XD If I win the lottery and get filthy rich I wouldn’t think twice of buying it, which is highly impossible since I don’t enter the lottery. If I do end up buying it, I probably wouldn’t use it. LOL! I’ll just depend on my grandmother because she plays it everyday. XD I really wish her case isn’t as serious as I think and that she won’t stay at the hospital for long. *crosses fingers*

I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t love you
I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t care
I wouldn’t waste your time or my time in a love that’s going nowhere”

My last post for January! Yipee! Final’s coming and it’ll be summer again. Bwahaha. And yes, I’m inspired by Berlinda’s song I Wouldn’t Be Here If I Didn’t Love You. Yeah, I know the title’s pretty long. Unlike my previous love posts, this isn’t directed to anyone in particular, which is unusual I admit. Haha. My father is sleeping with the radio in its full volume so I can hear the songs being played by the current station and they’re all about love. Gosh. I can already feel that February is really the love month. Hahaha. But those songs remind me of two guys, who both play a different role in my life.

Speaking of my father, he was telling me lately that he’s going to buy me a laptop if my grades are good. I don’t know whether it’s true or it only serves as a bait for me to study. If it’s the latter, well, it’s working because I’m already motivated. LOL.

We were making our Database project last Friday and I realized that PHP and MySQL are a well-matched couple. And I even came up with a corny pick-up line: We’re like PHP and MySQL. We’re inseparable. Bwahaha. We haven’t finished half of the project and the deadline’s slowly arriving.

_{All this time, I knew someday you’d need to find something that you left behind, something I can’t give you.}

A friend of mine invited me for an internship for a certain company. I would have loved to try and apply there, but if I get accepted and start my training this semester would make me crazy. I mean, literally crazy. I already have lots of schoolwork to do, plus I joined the PhilNits review and the exam would be on April, which means I have an extra stuff to study so I can be prepared. I doubt though if I’d take this exam seriously since I was just joining because my classmates were coaxing me. LOL. I thought it would be fun to experience it too. But yeah, it’s another load on my plate and adding one more would be the end of me.

I finished watching Boys Over Flowers last year, and ABS-CBN has it up again, along with their not-so-funny-but-it-seems-so-to-me dubbing and my grandmother is watching it. Bwahahaha. And everytime I go to her room, she’d rant about it and keep saying how bad she feels for Ji Hoo, who loves the female lead. He won’t get the girl but he’s done all he can for her. Anyway, I still love Ji Hoo. :P Well, if only he is real and knows that I exist… *faints*

I’ve downloaded lots of movies last week and haven’t watched them yet. I will definitely watch them this week. AJA! My priority though is Lovely Bones and Dorian Gray. Watch them guys, if you haven’t.

Our Networking teacher just informed us of our grades. Oh, well… I passed! Haha. Thank goodness! XD We had this 10-point essay and I sort of just rambling there, only writing three lines. I barely understood what I wrote and depended on my luck, but I got a 10. Haha. My friends were complaining since they wrote long ones and got a 3 instead. LOL. XD I am still very worried of my Computer Organization subject. Darn, I’m so bad at it! Hope I pass. But I feel like Hope is deserting me.

Wish me luck!

Oh my gosh! Yes, oh my gosh is omona in Korean. XD I just finished taking all exams this afternoon! YAY! But 2 of our subjects have a Part 2 exam though. It’s like a to-be-continued story whose ending is still to be decided: pass or fail. Anyway, I’m happy I don’t have to study anymore and I can attend to my sites. YAY!

I don’t really want to think of my subjects and my failing grades. It’ll just get me depressed. This is the first time that I felt like I’m really hanging off a cliff and committing any more mistake is enough make me fall and give myself a hard time pulling my grades back up.

Last Sunday, we celebrated Sinulog Festival and, the day before, we went to Church to attend mass. It was raining that day and we had to walk to get there because some parts of the street were blocked. I was sure I’d get sick so when I got home, I drank lots of water to prevent having a cold. And just this Thursday, I was surprised when I suddenly had a runny nose. It’s as if the colds was deciding if he should bother me and my nose or not and then when it was our Midterms week, he decided that yes, it would be fun for him to do that. He succeeded for I was bothered the whole time we had the exams.

For those who don't know what Sinulog is, click this. ▼

Since I don’t want to depend on medicine solely and since my mother always forgets to buy medicine for colds, I drank lots of water. Now that Midterms week is over, my nose felt normal. O_o It’s weird. LOL!

I’ve been interested at making money lately through blogging just for experience. And come to think of it, I joined the fanlisting world just to experience the script and ended up liking the new world so much that I was surprised of myself. XD

Questions:
1. Have you tried paid blogging?
2. Do you know some trusted sites with those services?
3. Do you have a blog like that? If so, I would love to see it. XD
4. What are your honest opinions about paid blogging?